My close friend Maria is doing her thesis on the grieving process. Last week instead of working on my thesis during class, I started writing poems. She LOVED them. In fact, she loved a couple of them so much that she is including them in her thesis. I am currently going through the grieving process TIMES TWO. Since I am SUCH a control-freak, the fact that I am grieving over two different incidents in my life and the fact that I am in different phases of the grief process is a little much for me. I do not do well when I am not in control. Surprised???
Today at church, I spoke to the Branch President. His main message for me: I need to STOP being so STUBBORN and I need to learn to ACCEPT HELP and/or ASK FOR HELP from others. I also need to focus on ME. I need to do whatever it takes to get HEIDI in a HAPPY place. And not that he wanted to kick me while I was down, but he also reiterated the fact that I need to CLING to the Savior more than I ever have. I thought it was quite appropriate that the opening hymn in Sacrament Meeting was "How Firm a Foundation".
I'm not ready to talk about the incidents I am grieving over, but I am ready to share one of my poems. The new and improved HAPPY HEIDI will begin to look at things half-full instead of half-empty STARTING TODAY.
Selfishness or Selflessness
2 comments:
the contradictions we live our lives with are crazy.
don't force the happy heidi. it is totally unrealistic to expect her at this point. that's my two cents. unfortunately, life doesn't allow us the time we need to be angry, sad, or to grieve. but you have to find some time for it, otherwise it will always be there, just stuffed under a self-imposed happiness.
You could title your poem
"Free Agency"
You have soooo many talents
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