Ch . . . ch . . . ch . . . Changes

Well, I am not a fan of changes.  I dig my heels in.  I kick.  I scream.  I cry.  And may or may not complain a little bit.  Is it no wonder that my offspring react the same way to change?  I like comfort zone.  I like easy breezy.  Well, today was another change.  The Elder's Quorum President got released.

My first reaction was . . . tears . . .gasp . . .what am I going to do?  What is Cristian going to do?  But then I took a deep breath and realized maybe this is all part of the great plan.  Last night I was reading in the Gospel Principles manual about prayer.  The one paragraph that seemed to jump out from the page and poke me in the eye was:

Our sincere prayers are always answered. Sometimes the answer may be no, because what we have asked for would not be best for us. Sometimes the answer is yes, and we have a warm, comfortable feeling about what we should do (see D&C 9:8–9). Sometimes the answer is “wait a while.” Our prayers are always answered at a time and in a way that the Lord knows will help us the most.

Sometimes the answer is "wait awhile".   I have relied on the support of my church leaders more than ever this past year.  As I have relied on their guidance and support, their time to serve has come to an end in one way or another.  My Branch President moved to Mexico.  Our Stake President got called as Temple President.  The high council member that was also our home teacher was called to another position in the stake.  My Relief Society President moved back to her home ward.  And today the Elders Quorum President was released.

O.K. so you are probably thinking what is the big deal?  People get released in callings ALL.THE.TIME.  But you see, this is so different.  I have poured out my heart and soul to these brothers and sisters. Although I am not a fan of change, I realized one thing today.  This is a perfect opportunity for a fresh start.  This is a true new beginning.  I have felt that the Ram . . . family has gotten lost in the cracks with all of these leadership changes.  But could this be our opportunity to really grow?  And show what  we are made of? 

I don't need to recycle the feelings of hurt and pain.  Maybe I am about ready to turn that corner and allow the Savior to heal me.  Maybe this wouldn't have been possible had I been in my comfort zone . . . where my Stake President, High Council Member/Home Teacher, Relief Society President, and the Elder's Quorum President who know EVERYTHING there is to know about the Ram Fam (plus more than they ever wanted to know) were still my  leaders.  Maybe this is what needed to happen so that I would be forced to EMBRACE change.  And to rely even more on the Lord.

I am grateful for our new Branch President who has since become our home teacher.  And I am grateful for the missionaries who visit us often.  And in the meantime while the rest of these changes keep happening around me, I will continue to "wait awhile".  The answers that I am seeking will surely come.