Facebook Fasting

I was completely inspired by my cousin to close my FB account.  Except for I couldn't do that because I am a complete and total FB addict.  I have a very addictive personality.  I go through cycles.  My addictions go something like this:  blogging, coupon clipping and deal-finding, community service and/or politics, food and/or exercising/working out, and FB.

Instead of closing my account, I decided I would go on a FB fast.  My family was right.  They mocked me and told me I couldn't stay away from FB for more than 2 weeks.  I was shooting for two months. Why 2 months?  #1 Just to prove my family wrong.  #2 Two months marks a very important date that I was advised by my former Stake President to wait for before I make any decisions that could impact my family for better or for worse.

I was FB free for ALMOST 2 weeks.  I have noticed that although FB is a huge time suck, it is healthy for me because I am able to vent.  FB is my free therapy when I am not able to rush downtown after work and visit Dr. Cam (the therapist I pay to help me work on my ISSUES).  It actually turned into more of an issue that I wasn't on FB.  I received text messages, e-mails, and phone calls from family/friends asking me if everything was o.k.  I even got stopped in the foyer of church last Sunday by two people making sure everything was alright because I hadn't been updating on FB.

This morning before work, Cristian and I had a deep conversation.  Tonight when Cristian got home from work he asked me why I hadn't told him (about two months ago) the things I told him this morning.  I responded that I was trying to edit for him and that I didn't want to let him know the worries and disappointments of my world.  He then told me that my editing function is broken.  He said I don't edit.  I accumulate.  I keep everything inside until I can't possibly hold anything else in.  Then I burst.  And explode.  Or meltdown.  (I think this morning may have been a combination of all three.)

Effective immediately, Cristian is changing tactics with me.  Instead of just assuming that all is well in my world, he is going to ask questions and encourage me to talk.  He wants to help me be less of an accumulator.  (One of the biggest problems of being an accumulator is that I have difficulty LETTING THINGS GO and NOT HOLDING GRUDGES.)    Anyway, with the combined help of Cristian, FB, a little bit of blogging here and there, and Dr. Cam . . .  I will try to be less of an accumulator.

And don't worry friends and family all is well in my world  . . . according to my most recent FB status.