Love Week 2011

Let's take a BIG.GIANT.SIGH of relief.  It's over.  Whew.  One of the most difficult challenges for me is to not replay events of Valentine's past and wallow in self-misery.   This year I made an effort to make NEW and IMPROVED memories.

Last Saturday, we went to P.F. Chang's as a family with all of the other thousands of couples that had a brilliant idea to celebrate Valentine's Day two days early.  On Monday (Valentine's Day), Cristian worked tweener which means 1:00 p.m.-10:00 p.m. shift.  (Hello, can anyone say "tender mercy of the Lord???")  The kids and I enjoyed a lovely evening at the baseball fields (Ahem . . . let's see how strong of a person you REALLY are Heidiram).   Cristian booked reservations for us to go on Friday to a bed and breakfast in Jacksonville.

My attitude and mood the entire Valentine's week was less than stellar.  It must have something to do with those unresolved issues still needing to be worked through.  While we were at the bed and breakfast, Cristian and I talked.  And talked.  And talked.  And talked.  Cristian and I share a LOT of history.  We share THREE beautiful children.  We have been married for 15 years.  I appreciate his efforts this past year to make amends.  I appreciate all he does to provide for our family.  I appreciate repentance.  I appreciate forgiveness.  I appreciate . . . appreciation.  He is trying.  He really is trying.

I have signed off Facebook for the next month or two.  I am not ready to completely shut down my account because let's face it . . . Facebook is FREE therapy when Dr. Cam is booked.  Instead of focusing my discretionary time and energies on my FB friends, I am going to focus my friendship efforts on the guy who lives with me and who is trying so hard to be my real-life friend.

Time for one more BIG.GIANT.SIGH of relief.  (And maybe even an anti-anxiety pill or two.)

The end.